Let me start by saying, I miss you like crazy! People keep asking how I'm holding up, and I just tear up, and smile. I don't think I've gone more than 2 hours without crying for the past 6 days. It's pretty pathetic.
Anyway, today I went to a Mommy and Me movie with Stephanie and Henry. We saw Water for Elephants! It was pretty cool, they turned up the lights, and down the sound, and everyone brings their babies! Haha! Piper and Henry were so cute watching the movie, although they were more interested in each other than the movie. There were probably about 40 moms and babies there, I was surprised. The movie was pretty good, but not as good as all the hoopla about it. I wouldn't pay to see it again, but I might rent it.
You will be happy to know, that today I filled the Rx for the anxiety meds. I know I know, it's been 5 months, but I am starting to feel like I really need them. Like I said, I have been crying so much, and I am getting so emotional about the whole breastfeeding thing, you being gone, my Dad, just a lot of things going on. So at the doctor appointment I had today, I asked for a new Rx, and I filled it tonight. I'm really hoping it helps. I'm so sick of laying in bed for 2 hours playing images of you getting killed, or me and Piper getting hurt some way. I'm even starting to have trouble driving. I can't change lanes with out checking my blind spot 9 or 10 times, and even then, as I change lanes my heart stops beating. I get these images of me crashing, and Piper being stuck in the backseat, and I can't get to her. It's awful, and sad. I don't want to live like this if I don't have to, so I am hopeful that these drugs will work.
Me and Pip had a long day today with the Movies, and Doctors appointments, then we went to Target to fill some prescriptions. Piper has been sleeping since 8, it's now 10, and I'm heading to bed as well.
I hope all is well with you. I miss you like crazy and can't wait to hear from you!
Lots of love and smooches,
Mari-Cait and Piper
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