I do love you

 Bredin,

It actually breaks my heart to hear that you were questioning my love for you. I can't believe I let you go away for 7 months with you not knowing if you were coming home to a wife that loved you. How sad. I really hope that I am in a better place when you come home. I'm sorry Bredin.

I do love you, and I do love us. I just really miss the old us, and I don't know how to get that back. I fell in love with you because you were driven, and creative, and spontaneous, and just so fun to be around. I feel like you changed so much when I got pregnant. It was like all of a sudden life got serious, but you got lazy. I don't think you understand how frustrating it was to watch you sit on the couch all.day.long. It was depressing. I felt like no matter how many times I told you how upsetting it was, you just didn't hear me, but I should never has used the words I used with you to get my point across.

When you come home, we need to work together to live harmoniously. I love cleaning, and taking care of the house, and cooking, and baking, but I see RED when I spend my time doing these things, only for you to leave your clothes on the floor, or not offer to help with the dishes, or not even think thank me for it. You always wanted me to thank you when you did the littlest thing, but it didn't ever occur to you to thank me for what I did every day. You have to realize that that was frustrating.

I think that this time apart is going to be very helpful. And these letters are helping us to get our thoughts out without yelling or fighting, and it forces us to listen to each other. I think every couple should write each other letters once in a while.

For the next couple of days, I want to tell you some things about me that you might not know, or might not have taken seriously, so here goes.





I respect you.


I hope you are having a great day, and a safe night,
Mari-Cait