Sunday, May 22, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
I do love you
Bredin,
It actually breaks my heart to hear that you were questioning my love for you. I can't believe I let you go away for 7 months with you not knowing if you were coming home to a wife that loved you. How sad. I really hope that I am in a better place when you come home. I'm sorry Bredin.
I do love you, and I do love us. I just really miss the old us, and I don't know how to get that back. I fell in love with you because you were driven, and creative, and spontaneous, and just so fun to be around. I feel like you changed so much when I got pregnant. It was like all of a sudden life got serious, but you got lazy. I don't think you understand how frustrating it was to watch you sit on the couch all.day.long. It was depressing. I felt like no matter how many times I told you how upsetting it was, you just didn't hear me, but I should never has used the words I used with you to get my point across.
When you come home, we need to work together to live harmoniously. I love cleaning, and taking care of the house, and cooking, and baking, but I see RED when I spend my time doing these things, only for you to leave your clothes on the floor, or not offer to help with the dishes, or not even think thank me for it. You always wanted me to thank you when you did the littlest thing, but it didn't ever occur to you to thank me for what I did every day. You have to realize that that was frustrating.
I think that this time apart is going to be very helpful. And these letters are helping us to get our thoughts out without yelling or fighting, and it forces us to listen to each other. I think every couple should write each other letters once in a while.
For the next couple of days, I want to tell you some things about me that you might not know, or might not have taken seriously, so here goes.
I respect you.
I hope you are having a great day, and a safe night,
Mari-Cait
It actually breaks my heart to hear that you were questioning my love for you. I can't believe I let you go away for 7 months with you not knowing if you were coming home to a wife that loved you. How sad. I really hope that I am in a better place when you come home. I'm sorry Bredin.
I do love you, and I do love us. I just really miss the old us, and I don't know how to get that back. I fell in love with you because you were driven, and creative, and spontaneous, and just so fun to be around. I feel like you changed so much when I got pregnant. It was like all of a sudden life got serious, but you got lazy. I don't think you understand how frustrating it was to watch you sit on the couch all.day.long. It was depressing. I felt like no matter how many times I told you how upsetting it was, you just didn't hear me, but I should never has used the words I used with you to get my point across.
When you come home, we need to work together to live harmoniously. I love cleaning, and taking care of the house, and cooking, and baking, but I see RED when I spend my time doing these things, only for you to leave your clothes on the floor, or not offer to help with the dishes, or not even think thank me for it. You always wanted me to thank you when you did the littlest thing, but it didn't ever occur to you to thank me for what I did every day. You have to realize that that was frustrating.
I think that this time apart is going to be very helpful. And these letters are helping us to get our thoughts out without yelling or fighting, and it forces us to listen to each other. I think every couple should write each other letters once in a while.
For the next couple of days, I want to tell you some things about me that you might not know, or might not have taken seriously, so here goes.
I respect you.
I hope you are having a great day, and a safe night,
Mari-Cait
From Bredin to Mari-Cait
May 21, 2011
Hey baby!
I want to start by saying that I got your blog letters, and I hate you for making me tear up in front of people I work with! Not cool! I am so glad you said the things that you did. In my time out here, I have a lot of time to think of my life and where I am heading(too much time), and the only thing I wasn’t sure of was how you really felt about not just me, but about us. I wish you had said these things before I left, but am glad you let me know. I knew that most of the bad stuff you said was due to life stresses, and was in the heat of the moment, but it really feels good to know you didn’t really mean them. I love you so much and I think… no, know that you are a beautiful person, even if, at times, you don’t think so.
I am looking forward to coming home to you, and letting our love grow and mature. Remember that being there for each other isn’t just about having our affairs in order. It’s also about supporting each other in everything that we do, and speaking gently to one another, especially when we are upset, because harsh words almost never solve problems so much as make the current ones seem worse. Hopefully, through our ordeals over the past year, we will have a much more clear perspective of our hopes and dreams as individuals, as well as, as a family.
As far as my safety is concerned; you don’t have to worry about anything. We are far away from any areas that may pose a risk, we wouldn’t be targets anyhow, but we do have an excellent security force on board. I’m actually talking to people about getting on with the security detail, though that is the responsibility of deck department and not supply. We’ll see though. But like I said; no need to worry baby.
We had a rough couple of days! Lots of overtime. ______________. I feel like I lost like 10 pounds! We even worked through lunch! Supply, who doesn’t usually work on evolutions like that, got volunteered to help out, so most of them were pissed. But like I said, we got about 10 hours of overtime! Plus with our assistance the 3 day evolution was finished in 2. The cargo mate, who is the head officer in charge(and reminds me of a curly haired Bradley Cooper) gave us a special thanks, and offered to write letters of commendation for everyone in supply who helped out. We may even get a cash reward if the CO approves it, because we helped save MSC at least $200,000 or so(just spitballing, but it’s a lot of $).
Hopefully you get to read this. If you do, then the world hasn’t come to an end today! LOL!
Talk to you later baby!
Love,
Bredin
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Hey hon!
I''m so glad that you got to have a BBQ! How fun! It sounds like you have been very busy, and working hard, I'm so proud of you. Things here are getting crazy now that classes have started. I'm taking one online class, and then Anatomy and Physiology in person all day on Saturdays! My mom will have Piper for 8 hours on Saturday, and I'm going to miss her so very much. I have to figure out how I'm going to pump at school, because I will be there all day. Then on Sundays I'm taking Tessa to puppy school, to calm her butt down. I got her a new collar, and she is doing so much better on walks. I've gotten to the point where I can take Piper in the Ergo, and Tessa on the leash, and walk calmly. Soon I am going to try to tie Tessa to the stroller, and take her on the longer walk.
I've been thinking a lot about you lately, and how much you are missing out on with Piper. It is truly breaking my heart Bredin. I really hope that I can have my Lactation Certification by next April, so you can get a different job, and be home with us for good. I can't even think about the reality of you leaving every year for 7 months. It is so unfair that you don't get to be with Piper as she grows. I'm not trying to be a sappy, but it has been on my mind a lot lately.
She is getting so big! She is too long for all her clothes now, and too skinny for the next size, so I am having a lot of trouble finding her things to wear. She is rolling all over the place, front to back, back to front, side to side. She can hold onto the couch for about ten minutes and stand up! She is saying Mama, and it is the most wonderful sound in the world! She doesn't quit know who Mama is yet, but she can say it! Every day I show her a picture of you and we practice saying Dada, so she is getting close on that too. She can give raspberries, and mimics me when I give them to her! I fall deeper in love with her everyday!
I have to get back to school work before Piper gets up, so I will talk to you more tomorrow!
I love you so very much,
Mari-Cait and Piper
I''m so glad that you got to have a BBQ! How fun! It sounds like you have been very busy, and working hard, I'm so proud of you. Things here are getting crazy now that classes have started. I'm taking one online class, and then Anatomy and Physiology in person all day on Saturdays! My mom will have Piper for 8 hours on Saturday, and I'm going to miss her so very much. I have to figure out how I'm going to pump at school, because I will be there all day. Then on Sundays I'm taking Tessa to puppy school, to calm her butt down. I got her a new collar, and she is doing so much better on walks. I've gotten to the point where I can take Piper in the Ergo, and Tessa on the leash, and walk calmly. Soon I am going to try to tie Tessa to the stroller, and take her on the longer walk.
I've been thinking a lot about you lately, and how much you are missing out on with Piper. It is truly breaking my heart Bredin. I really hope that I can have my Lactation Certification by next April, so you can get a different job, and be home with us for good. I can't even think about the reality of you leaving every year for 7 months. It is so unfair that you don't get to be with Piper as she grows. I'm not trying to be a sappy, but it has been on my mind a lot lately.
She is getting so big! She is too long for all her clothes now, and too skinny for the next size, so I am having a lot of trouble finding her things to wear. She is rolling all over the place, front to back, back to front, side to side. She can hold onto the couch for about ten minutes and stand up! She is saying Mama, and it is the most wonderful sound in the world! She doesn't quit know who Mama is yet, but she can say it! Every day I show her a picture of you and we practice saying Dada, so she is getting close on that too. She can give raspberries, and mimics me when I give them to her! I fall deeper in love with her everyday!
I have to get back to school work before Piper gets up, so I will talk to you more tomorrow!
I love you so very much,
Mari-Cait and Piper
From Bredin to Mari-Cait
Hey there hot stuff!
Things are going pretty quickly here. I can’t believe it’s almost been a month since I’ve been gone! My job has been undergoing an interesting morphing process. I am now a _______, and got to use that by helping with moving weapons around (bombs, missiles, rockets, and bullets and whatnot). We went by the _______ the other day, and I saw quite a few fishermen doing their work old school in tiny(15 ft.) outrigger canoes. Pretty cool huh?
We have been working 7 days a week since we’ve pulled out which Is some of the main reason it’s been going by so fast. I get some good off time as well. They don’t want us to get burned out and all. Which brings me to the steel beach picnic we had the other day. After the work day ended, the ship’s stewards had set up a barbecue picnic up on the flight deck(its on the fantail) and we had ribeye steak, barbecue chicken, ribs, coleslaw, beans, and the whole shebang. The only thing missing was cold beers and cornhole! When the sun had set they had games like mini-golf, a wannabe cornhole set, and even a dunk tank. there are a lot of people who have purchased remote control helicopters in ______, and they had made up a vert-rep game. Someone made a wooden aircraft carrier and a wooden ________. They took turns taking off from the _____, landing on the carrier, and then returning to the original ship. The guy who won it had a different toy helicopter that he had from the states. It was pretty high tech and handled remarkably better than the cheap Chinese rip offs everyone else had!
There are not many things to do here on the ship, but I’ve found that my favorite thing to do is sit on the 04 level at night. There’s a great view of the flight deck on the back, and the moon is usually in view and lights everything in sight up. There are chairs set up there, and I like to sit and watch the ocean and think of you and Piper. I can’t wait till we are all back together and can take a nice vacation somewhere(maybe New Mexico ?).
Much Love,
Bredin
Saturday, May 14, 2011
From Bredin to Mari-Cait
Sunday, May 5, 2011
Happy Mother's Day Baby!
I hope this day finds you healthy and happy. I had a rough
day yesterday, but it was sun too. My new assignment for unreps(underway
replenishments) is ________, and I got to get some ojt
for that yesterday. About thirty minutes into the unrep I started to get
heat exhaustion. This was due to, in my opinion, my body being weakened
by fighting off the smallpox vaccination, and also fighting off the
cough/flu that I have now too. Also, someone told me that we were about
5 degrees away from the equator, so the heat was.... Unbearable. As I
got more lightheaded, I asked someone to take over the phone for me, and
I went inside. No more than a few seconds after I walked into the
hangar, I had to lie down on the deck to keep from passing out. Whoo!,
that was unnerving. I ran my hands under some cool water after I got up,
and was feeling better pretty quickly. So, I drank about a gallon of
water and went back out to work again. The rest of the time was
fortunately uneventful. Though, I did have a headache from dehydration
for the rest of the day. I have been drinking a LOT more water now. So,
don't worry about that.
One thing that was really enjoyable out of that experience was there
were flying fish popping up all over the place between us and the other
ship as we went along. They were a welcome distraction from the
oppressive heat. Does Piper have a passport? We will be pulling in for
like a three week shipyard period, and it would be great if you could
get a buddy pass to where we are and have a mini- vacation. I can't tell
you when, or where, due to operational security, but I'll let you know
as soon as we're there. That is, if you want to, or can do that. If you
do, start making plans soon. I hope you can! I've been told there are
some great tours, and snorkeling, and all kinds of things to do.
I'm disappointed that I didn't have time to do something special for you
on this mother's day, but I will send you and your mother something nice
soon.
I love you so much,
and hope you have a wonderful day!
TTYL!
p.s. write me back soon! I'd love to hear what you're up to. Even if you
think it's mundane.
Happy Mother's Day Baby!
I hope this day finds you healthy and happy. I had a rough
day yesterday, but it was sun too. My new assignment for unreps(underway
replenishments) is ________, and I got to get some ojt
for that yesterday. About thirty minutes into the unrep I started to get
heat exhaustion. This was due to, in my opinion, my body being weakened
by fighting off the smallpox vaccination, and also fighting off the
cough/flu that I have now too. Also, someone told me that we were about
5 degrees away from the equator, so the heat was.... Unbearable. As I
got more lightheaded, I asked someone to take over the phone for me, and
I went inside. No more than a few seconds after I walked into the
hangar, I had to lie down on the deck to keep from passing out. Whoo!,
that was unnerving. I ran my hands under some cool water after I got up,
and was feeling better pretty quickly. So, I drank about a gallon of
water and went back out to work again. The rest of the time was
fortunately uneventful. Though, I did have a headache from dehydration
for the rest of the day. I have been drinking a LOT more water now. So,
don't worry about that.
One thing that was really enjoyable out of that experience was there
were flying fish popping up all over the place between us and the other
ship as we went along. They were a welcome distraction from the
oppressive heat. Does Piper have a passport? We will be pulling in for
like a three week shipyard period, and it would be great if you could
get a buddy pass to where we are and have a mini- vacation. I can't tell
you when, or where, due to operational security, but I'll let you know
as soon as we're there. That is, if you want to, or can do that. If you
do, start making plans soon. I hope you can! I've been told there are
some great tours, and snorkeling, and all kinds of things to do.
I'm disappointed that I didn't have time to do something special for you
on this mother's day, but I will send you and your mother something nice
soon.
I love you so much,
and hope you have a wonderful day!
TTYL!
p.s. write me back soon! I'd love to hear what you're up to. Even if you
think it's mundane.
From Bredin to Mari-Cait
Hey baby!
All is going well here. The trip out to Dubai was very uneventful, which
is good I suppose. Never did get that first class seat tho, which sucks,
cause they looked pretty swank! The hotel in Dubai where I stayed, the
_____, was friggin sweet! four star all the way! You can
check it out online. Just look for the ______ Dubai on google.
Their soap smelled really good. Also their restaurant... well, they had
like five, but I ate at... I forget, but they had a sushi buffet which I
thought was gonna be so so. Turns out that it was probably the best I've
ever eaten.
I left for the ship at 8 a.m. on a little bus with 5 other
people. It was a ____ drive to (I'll probably misspell this______. What a bleak countryside! Nothing but desert that turned into
mountains. There were only varying hues of brown and brownish green that
only changed when the iron content in certain hills/mountains stained
the land an old rust color. Despite all of that, there was new
construction everywhere. And, not just any old housing developments;
these looked like homes for the elite class. There seems to be a lot of
optimism for growth out there.
When we arrived at the ship, everyone was off of the boat(in
port for one day) in the one place they could go; a little strip mall in
the port with 5 stores selling the same things. That is where we had our
wonderful conversation on the phone. So, I bought some essentials and
got back to the boat.
Our first day out to sea, I saw a pod of whales! Humpbacks,
I think. Since then it's been pretty much the same routine every day.
There is actually an elevator on the boat, which I think is crazy! I
only take the stairs though, which has me walking up about fifty flights
per day. I'm gonna have some rock hard buns for you to pinch when I get
back!
Well, I have to go now. It's just turning seven now(been up since five)
so I'm gonna have breakfast, and get to work.
Miss you sooo much!
Love and kisses
All is going well here. The trip out to Dubai was very uneventful, which
is good I suppose. Never did get that first class seat tho, which sucks,
cause they looked pretty swank! The hotel in Dubai where I stayed, the
_____, was friggin sweet! four star all the way! You can
check it out online. Just look for the ______ Dubai on google.
Their soap smelled really good. Also their restaurant... well, they had
like five, but I ate at... I forget, but they had a sushi buffet which I
thought was gonna be so so. Turns out that it was probably the best I've
ever eaten.
I left for the ship at 8 a.m. on a little bus with 5 other
people. It was a ____ drive to (I'll probably misspell this______. What a bleak countryside! Nothing but desert that turned into
mountains. There were only varying hues of brown and brownish green that
only changed when the iron content in certain hills/mountains stained
the land an old rust color. Despite all of that, there was new
construction everywhere. And, not just any old housing developments;
these looked like homes for the elite class. There seems to be a lot of
optimism for growth out there.
When we arrived at the ship, everyone was off of the boat(in
port for one day) in the one place they could go; a little strip mall in
the port with 5 stores selling the same things. That is where we had our
wonderful conversation on the phone. So, I bought some essentials and
got back to the boat.
Our first day out to sea, I saw a pod of whales! Humpbacks,
I think. Since then it's been pretty much the same routine every day.
There is actually an elevator on the boat, which I think is crazy! I
only take the stairs though, which has me walking up about fifty flights
per day. I'm gonna have some rock hard buns for you to pinch when I get
back!
Well, I have to go now. It's just turning seven now(been up since five)
so I'm gonna have breakfast, and get to work.
Miss you sooo much!
Love and kisses
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